i’m done. i’m done trying to be happy cause i have to. i actually wanna be happy. like honestly. this time, it’s gone bad. never hit rock bottom that hard. but you know what makes me laugh, people only care once you’ve hit your lowest point. maybe i wouldn’t have gone through this if you were actually there. i’m not blaming anyone cause i solely did this to myself. but yeah. i just wish that when someone promises that they’ll stay, they’ll actually stay. i feel selfish for asking so much. honestly, it’s my fault. always was. i just put the blame on others. i need to grow and rethink my whole life cause as of right now, there’s no point in living.
why? cause i have a bestfriend that was there for me since the start and i never knew that. we had our ups and downs thinking it was the end, but actually, you stayed. so so so so happy! it’s nice that my life is coming back together. no more awkwardness with anybody.
I’m praying it’s not true. It can’t be true. It won’t happen. It can’t. All cause of that you might be leaving our school? No. I won’t let this happen. Sure, it was the wrong this to do, but she totally deserved it. You’re an inspiration to me. You taught me life lessons no one would’ve ever taught me. You helped me become more confident. You are one of the key people in my life and I won’t let some girl’s parents take you away.
A message to you:
How dare you. how dare you even think of doing that. you disgust me. you’re yanking away my inspiration cause he did that. really? come on. you deserved it in every single way. you never tried and you don’t care. well you know what, i care. I care about theatre. I care about new york. I care about my senior plays. I care so much. I swear, if this actually happens, you’re dead to me. you crushed my hopes and my dreams. as corny as this may sound, it’s true. pft, forget about your problems and actually realize that there’s other people on this earth besides you. realize that if you do this, school won’t be the same. drama won’t be the same. theatre company won’t be the same. nothing will. well, for me, at least. to end this off, i wanna say good luck. why? cause if this happens…run and hide. actually, whether this happens or not, what you did was rude. rude rude rude. have a good life knowing that you’ve ruined mine.