But what’s the point? It’s not like you want me as a friend. wait, do you? I’m not so sure anymore. I don’t want anything awkward between us and i pray that nothing will change between us. I don’t want to drift away from you because it crushes me inside. I know that after reading that sentence you’ll know it’s for you. I can’t believe that i hurt you and made you dissapointed at me. I’ve hurt someone i treasure. It’s not that i’m making a big deal about things, but lately i have because all i have been thinking is how we’re not chilling as much. I just wish we could catch up and not drift away any longer. I try my best to make people happy but sometimes it’s hard. sometimes, i try my best to treat people right, but i slip once in a while. I’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry! i know i keep saying this and i know you keep saying it’s alright but i just can’t believe myself. I have a tendency to get jealous once in a while but it’s only because it’s hard for me not to hang out with you. i guess i’m just so used to it. I don’t know. But i have one thing to say to you and that’s: thank you. Thank you for being one of the greatest people in my life. Thank you for understanding me and cheering me up when i’m down. I know sometimes i may fail but you just help me up. You know how to make me laugh and we have the best inside jokes. So thanks. Thank you for everything. (:

For me, this was a special time. It was a place where I can be myself without being mocked, judged, or made fun of. It was a blessing to spend the long weekend with the church and especially the youth. The youth truly got closer to my heart and I feel that not only are my brothers and sister in Christ, but they are also like the brothers and sisters I never had and wanted. Truly, I’m glad and I realized that our youth should camp alot because we get even closer and it’s just a nice feeling in general. I really can’t wait for next year and I thank God for all the blessings! Next week is also PNE , yessss! I could just spend time with you guys forever. 

Every single day i just watch and stare at the tv and wait till it comes on. When it comes on, I become so motivated and pumped. I wish my school had a swimming team -.-